Hotashi - Jack’s Blog

I’m sorry if I worried anyone with the post that Ams and I broke up. I wasn’t lying, we did. But we talked for a while today, and we are going to resume talking. It’s still not exactly the same, but we are optimistic about out future. We hope that our relationship is heading in a direction that honors God.

I also don’t want to give people the impression that it wasn’t that serious because we didn’t breakup for that long. The issues involved were very serious, and we are still going to work on them. I won’t get into the details.

Thanks for everyone that has been supportive when they learned about the breakup through this blog. Sorry I didn’t tell you people myself, but it was hard for me to talk about it.

Current Mood: optimistic.

Listening to: LeAnn Rimes - I Need You

I guess I should explain what Hotashi is. It is a Japanese word that Ams made up… she thought it was a real word, but Maki told her it wasn’t.

I’ve been avoiding talking about Ams for the last few days because we have broken up. We agreed that we both needed to mature separately as Christians before our relationship would be fruitful. Now, however I regret making that decision and I’m unsure if it was the correct one to make.

Anyway, before we broke up we talked about getting a domain together, and this was what she suggested. I wanted to get everything setup as a surprise for her… but I guess now I’m just going to be using it myself. :(

I’ve been listening to some MP3s that Ams sent me over the years, and it’s making me more depressed… I dunno why I keep listening to them.

Current Mood: sad.

Listening to: Bran Van 3000 - Love Cliché