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Just some news that I need to report:
1. Jack and I had taken a week vacation to the West coast to visit my uncle’s family. We had a great time there and we got a lot of shopping done (they don’t have sales tax in their state). I got sick at the end of the trip which really sucked and I’m still getting over it now. =/

2. My hamster Tokki passed away when I was gone - just a day before I was going to get back. For some reason I always know when my hamsters are going to go and the last two ones passed away when I went away for a week. Maybe they do it on purpose? So for both Froggy and Tokki I had a feeling they would pass while I was away and I said goodbye before I left. It doesn’t make it any easier though. Unlike Froggy I got to bury Tokki myself, but it didn’t really do much for me. His body was just a carcass - it wasn’t Tokki. I wish I could have been there. I hate to think that he died alone. I still haven’t put away his cage and everytime I see it I forget that he isn’t there. Death sucks.

3. Now that I’m done school I’ve been applying for jobs. I was really upset yesterday because I had wanted to apply to a research analyst job but I missed the deadline by one day. It was a job that I really wanted and I am perfect for. Now I have to apply to some mediocre jobs that I don’t care as much about. ARGH!

4. I have my convocation at the end of the month and I don’t know what to wear to it. I want to look good since there will be a lot of picture taking. Being in an MA program means you get really close with the other people in your program as well as professors. This convocation has more meaning than my undergrad one for that as well as because I worked my ass off to graduate!

5. I made another blog. Yes, another one. Don’t you know I’m a blogging addict yet? Gosh! Here it is >> Je t’aime

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I’ve spent the last time with Jack, which has been very satisfying. Sometimes I get surprised at how much I still like him after being together for four and a half years. I hope the feeling lasts =P. Jack just got a place of his own so I’ve been helping him pick out some furniture from IKEA and then assemble it. I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned how much I like assembling furniture. Jack didn’t know about this secret love and I think he was a little scared. Well…he was probably also happy since he doesn’t have the patience for such things. Haha. I’m looking forward to being able to hang out somewhere that is 1) not located in the suburbs, and 2) not our parent’s house or scream student living. Plus we can use the starter furniture when we move in together after we get married. =)

Speaking of marriage, we started to plan the wedding and reception. All I can say is UGH! Receptions are hella expensive! If anyone knows me they know that I rationalize my spending and I don’t care much for useless crap. Well…most things about a wedding and reception are useless crap. I really don’t care about place settings, delicate invitations, dressed up chairs, coordinated colour schemes, guest favours (the most stupid, useless crap invented!!!), etc. Most of the things are a waste of money and I won’t even remember it all at the end of the day. But I also don’t want to look tasteless by neglecting all of these useless things…so I feel peer pressured into abiding to such things. Right now we are working through a guest list that is WAY TOO LONG and then we can book a place. Once that is done I’m hoping all the smaller things won’t be as big of a deal…here’s hoping. This wedding planning might make me dependent on some type of stimulant…like mini m&m’s. They are quite delicious. =P

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Hello everyone. I’m back! The trip was great, the weather wasn’t as bothersome as I had been warned about, and the jet lag is death. Ok, the last part is an exaggeration. I got back on Thursday and then spent the weekend with Jack rather than trying to recover from the trip. Tsk tsk to me. He just got his first place so I was helping him clean it up on Saturday. I think I’m more excited about it than he is, but I’m sure that once it sinks in he will be excited too. =P

We went for Korean BBQ over the weekend to Korean Grill House which offers an all you can eat menu. Can’t go wrong with that. We were seated next to three men who were enjoying their meat very much. I was baffled by their conversation though. I always thought the dialogue by men that was depicted on commercials advertising meat products was complete BS until I heard these men talk. It was the most stupid, senseless comments about the goodness of meat and grilling meat. One part went something like this:

Guy1: Meat is good
Guy2: Grilled meat is good
Guy3: Oh yes, grilled meat!
Guy1: Spice it up!
Guy2: Then it’s a totally different meal.
All: HAR HAR HAR
Guy3: Yeah, meat is good.
-and repeat-

Jack and I just looked at each other like we were scared that such stupidity was contagious. I remember at one point Jack and I started talking about computer challenged people and I shared some stories my cousin told me about his experiences working in the Dell call centre (in Bangalore). As we were poking fun at such people, especially people who type with two fingers, the men next to us grew quite silent and just stared at their meat. I wonder if they were computer challenged people. Haha, well the definately won’t be reading this if they are. LOL

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I’m going to a wedding this Saturday for a cousin I haven’t seen since I was a few months old. I don’t know if you can really count that as our last encounter since I was passed out for the most part. The bride is white-American so it should be an interesting wedding. Especially since it’s supposedly in a small rural town…we shall see how things go. I must say that I’m a little apprehensive about encounters with towns people or even other guests at the weddings. I really hate being stared at as some exotic specimen or ridiculed by individuals who still hold outdated racist beliefs. But I will try to keep a positive mind and hope that my family and I will have a pleasant time. I also intend on taking notes for when Jack and I start planning our wedding.

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It’s been a week since I dropped Jack off at the airport and waved farewell to him. He’ll be back in less than two weeks but I’m already counting down the days. Lately I’ve noticed that I’m more dependent on him…something that I attempted to avoid in the past. This dependence is more along the lines of emotional and psychological dependence. Just knowing that he’s always there when I need to talk about something and knowing that I can trust him with my deepest feelings. Having that security of knowing that I can just be myself around him without having to worry about how I should portray myself. It’s something that I never want to take for granted, especially after seeing so many long-term superficial relationships where the members play along to a fiscade of a perfect relationship when theirs is far from it. It’s disheartening, really and I’m glad I never settled for such a relationship. I have to admit that despite the intimacy I don’t like being dependent. I’ve never been truly independent (although I don’t believe anyone ever really is), and I just don’t like the idea of being vulnerable…like now. How I am just waiting for his return and anticipating his call. I know he did the same thing when I went to Europe last year, but it sucks. I’m pretty sure that missing your significant other is part of a healthy relationship, but my heart hurts. It’s just 9 more days…that’s what I keep telling myself.

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