Hotashi

I’ve been really busy with school lately. I had a mini breakdown and an anxiety attack last week. The stress has been really getting to me. Easter couldn’t have come at a better time, really. I went home this weekend to spend time with my family and relax. Church didn’t have the same effect like it had in the past, but it was good to be back. The message of Easter is always something that I need to cherish and remind myself of. And I’ve realized that I have been forgetting that my value does not lie anywhere but in God. I guess I’ve been trying to gain validation through completing my Masters, conducting my own research, and in other places. These accomplishments are a nice pat on the back, but day by day I am feeling less satisfied and more burdened. Things that once excited me now make me cringe. So I am now going to try to make a conscious effort to just do my best for Jesus and not care about impressing anyone else. Life is more enjoyable that way.

Just to add in something random, I am really hungry but whenever I walk out of my room into the kitchen I can smell the bag of garbage still waiting to be thrown out. I lose my appetite immediately, but I’m so hungry. Why can’t people do their chores on time? >_>

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